Thursday, 5 February 2009

Yeay! Internet!

Yes!
I found wireless internet connection downstairs!!
Now I can sit in front of the television whilst being online.
best sangat.

I went in this morning, and two more questionnaires had came back.
damn annoying.
I already finish writing in all my results, percentage calculations and inserting all my tables and graphs in my report, and now I have to re-do everything again to accommodate those two extra questionnaires.
You tell me annoying or not??
Just conclusion left to write, and a bit of polishing up and then it's all DONE! Yes!
Next audit coming up next week....

Managed to sum up the courage to ask my supervisor if I could go home to do another project.
Well, I didn't get a very positive feedback from it.
Firstly, I would need to talk to that person and discuss with her and then that person would have to discuss with the big boss.
Then I would have to find another new supervisor in Aberdeen to take on my project, as well as another supervisor in Malaysia.
Next I would have to come up with a proper feasible project which shows RESULTS. Because they're so damn scared that I go back to Malaysia for a four week holiday instead of doing work.
I would also need to submit a new form with the proposed project written up.
So yeah, how is it possible for me to do all that by next week?
Not to mention the booking of plane tickets back home etc.
In addition, if I went back and did my project and came back with no results, and they think that I went back for a holiday instead, I could fail my elective which mean I could fail my 5th year.
and that would be disastorous wouldn't it?
and my supervisor has a new audit project for me, so she thinks that I should just stay here and write up my existing project and do another audit project, at least I could put those two into my CV for specialty training in the future. Instead of going back and leave my existing project half-written and then ending up with nothing, and failing my elective and failing my 5th year. omg, why am I so long-winded.

So yeah, shall be growing mold here in Aberdeen for another 4 more weeks.

Damn annoyed. I hate the snow.
Walked to school today. Had to trudge through heavy heavy snow, nearly slipped on the snow a few times. My glasses all fogging up and snow falling heavily enough to obscure most of my view.
Frozen toes. No more wearing ballet flats to walk to school.
and soaking wet clothes clinging to your body as you saunter around during ward rounds.
Urgh.

Tuesday, 3 February 2009

crap weather

I hate the damn rain.

I hate the bloody wind messing up my hair.

Stupid grey skies.

The mind numbing cold.

Every morning the alarm clock on my mobile goes off. I awake in a daze walk over to the table pick it up and switch it off and crawl back into the warm comforts of the bed.

Sleep my only salvation in life.

Mesti mesti drag myself to school tomorrow no matter what.
Enough of slacking at home yeah.

Sunday, 1 February 2009

I stink

I wanna tell you that I stink.

Why ah?

This is because I haven't bathed the whole day yet.

And I've been walking around the whole of Aberdeen since morning.

HHAHAHHAHHAHHA.

Funny leh.

I need to stop sitting here in front of the computer and marinating and seeping in my own smelliness.

Eww ewwww.

Bye. I go shower first.

Emo-ness



Hope I get out of this negative mood which I am in lately FAST!

wargh shit

shit

why my life is so damn boring wan.
help help help help.
Aberdeen is....to sum it up in 3 words. COLD, WINDY, GREY.

I got nothing interesting to write.

Mok came to visit me for the weekend.
we went and makan makan makan.

~Ashvale Fish and Chips.
~Duthie Park
~Dim Sum at Yang Tze.

Anyway it's true that Yang Tze is under a new management now.
Some of their dim sum stuff is not up to standard. Eg. my favourite the salad prawn. It's 3 pounds and no.1 they chop in other stuff in addition to the prawn. no.2 it's so damn tiny. Wah so not worth it. I shall continue fantasizing about Manchester dim sum yeah.

Anyway at least their seafood noodle was quite nice. hahha.

Me and Mok tried to walk to Duthie Park this morning.
I wasn't sure of the road, so we ended up walking the wrong road.
Then we stopped and asked for directions from this old man.
The old man thought that his own explanation was confusing, so he walked us along the road, met some of his church friends and ask them if anybody has a car and could give us a ride to Duthie Park.
So this lady volunteered to drive us there cause it was on the way.
hahaha. So lucky. Seriously.
Aberdonians can be damn nice. Mok says that there's no way any Dundee people will ever offer to drive a random stranger.
Thank goodness for the ride, or else it would at least have taken us another half an hour to find the way.
The winter garden in Duthie Park is still as beautiful :)
I love being in the tropical garden part of the green house, feel like you're back in warm tropical Malaysia.

Ashvale fish & chips is still as good too.
I can't believe we actually had a starter, main course and dessert.
My diet plans have again been flushed down the drain. *sighs*
Had no idea what to eat for starter and Mok suggested that he wanted to try pate.
and I asked him if he knew what pate was?
and I told him that it was chicken liver grounded into a paste, and I didn't think that Chinese people like eating such things.
See I seem to like figuring out and making up my own mind about what I think people like and don't like. and I like to stop people from trying new things cause I think they might not like it.
So yeah note to self to stop trying to control people?
and note to self again to be more adventurous and try new things?
I don't really like trying new things cause I'm scared that it won't be good and then I'd curse and be annoyed.
So yeah in the end we did try the pate, which turned out surprisingly good :)

Some other thing which I have generalized about.
I think that chinese boys don't listen to Snow Patrol and have never even heard of Snow Patrol.
and I asked my friend who is a Chinese guy that.
and he says,"well I listen to Snow Patrol and I'm chinese. Maybe it's the Chinese Guys you hang out with who don't listen to Snow Patrol. Snow Patrol is a famous band and lots of people listen to it."
and I was like,"oh."

Wahaha maybe I think I am too cool and that I happent to discover and listen to cool alternative rock bands.
Whereas all the kononnya indie rock music I listen to are actually quite mainstream.


By the way, the following few sentences are all the nonsense I've been getting up to during ward rounds last Friday.

The ST2 was flipping through some leaflet on sexually transmitted diseases during ward rounds.
and I gleefully sidled up next to the nurse and loudly proclaim that, "I don't have any STDs!"
The ST2 glanced up and remarked,"So is that what you write on your lonelyhearts page? That you don't have any STDs and that you have a sense of humour?"
Argh. I curled my fingers into a fist and faked punched him.
But he is forgiven, as he bring out his stash of wonderful filtered coffee during ward round morning break.
Wonderful filtered coffee gives me a HUGE high for the day!
Also wonderful filtered coffee is totally screwing up my sleep. But that doesn't exactly make sense cause I drink the darn coffee in the morning, how come can screw up my sleep at night? I don't understand. What the heck.
The worst thing when I can't sleep is all sorts of nonsense creep into my head. All my insecurities, worries about life, and this has resulted in tossing and turning in bed all night. Argh.


Second story yang best.

In the cardiothoracic ward, they have this red heart shaped cardboard cut outs hanging from the ceiling as decorations. Anyway the houseman thought it was decorations for Valentine's Day.
and I was like,"No it's the cardiothoracic ward."
This results in both of us ROFL-ing.
I know not funny but I don't know why we found it really funny.

Third story yang tak tau best ker tidak.

During ward rounds, we went to see this patient.
He was kinda high on all the pain killers and morphine I think.
He ask, "Are any of you a professional backscratcher?"
The nurse replied with a perfectly straight face, "Yes. But then it will cost you."
I stood in the corridor laughing for quite some time.

I'm damn weird. I always laugh at the silliest things.

I got one damn lame joke coming up next.

When we were walking back from Ashvale restaurant, I picked up a pair of pink gloves from the road.
The gloves are from Marks and Spencer ok. Don't play-play.
Anyway I put it on my hand and said,"It fits like a glove!"
So damn lame.
But funny ok.
Hahhahahaahahaha.